I am loving summer but I am at the point where I am ready for it to be over. I still have a lot of things to do before the school year starts but I am just so ready and excited to start my career.
Being a stay at home mom is difficult for me. I have definitely fallen back into the rut I used to be in when I was home all of the time. I get so bored and that causes me to feel down and that causes me to eat. I have not done very well the past month or so in the weightloss department. I actually gained 4 pounds. :( However, I worked really hard this week and I was able to lose those few pounds, so now I am back to where I was at my last post.
I feel like I have finally pulled myself out of this at-home rut and have found my motivation again. I have gone to the pool a few times in the past 2 weeks and every time I go I see moms who are older than me with kids younger than mine in bikinis. I sit there and think "man, I wish I could look like that." And then I realized - why can't I? Today I saw a lady who looked like she was 40 with a 3 yr old and she was wearing a bikini. UGH! If these people are older than me, and their kids are younger than mine, then there is no reason I can't wear a bikini too!
The other night I had an adult temper tantrum and Kyle so kindly sat their and listened. :) I was venting how I feel like my life revolves around everyone else. Everyone comes first, all the time. I vented about this is the reason I am fat because I never have time for me. Then I watched "Extreme Makeover: Weightloss Edition." The woman on the episode was morbidly obese, worked full time and took care of her kids and husband. I so sympathized with her. The trainer told her that sometimes you just have to make everyone else take a backseat and it is okay to put ourselves first. That really hit home for me. That is exactly what I need to do. So, I have decided to let everyone take a backseat. I will take the kids to the park and the pool - but they have to sit through a 45 minute walk first. The kids can watch cartoons - but they aren't allowed to bug me because I am going to exercise for 2 hours while they watch tv (instead of me watching tv for 2 hours too.) Kyle also hooked up a tv in the exercise room for me and ran the cable lines so now I try and watch the shows I like live instead of on dvr so that I can watch them and exercise at the same time in the exercise room (there is no dvr in there.)
I have only had this new attitude for a few days now but I am hopeful I can stick to it again. If I can just get through the next 4 weeks, I will have no problems because after that I will be working and on my feet all day and I won't be around food 24/7 and I know the weight will fall off. I even made myself motivational posters and hung them up in the exercise room. One of them says.... You didn't get a college degree without studying. You won't get skinny without exercising. I worked so hard to finish school so if I put that same effort into exercising then I know I can do it.
So anyways, enough with the words.... Here are some pictures from today:
First, the kids to a "backseat" :) and I pushed them for about 45 minutes around the neighborhood. Kyle got my stroller "fixed" so I am hoping it won't break on me again.
Then we stopped at the park for some play time.
Last, we stopped off at the splash pad next to the park. They were so hot and I didn't have swimsuits with me so they just played in their clothes. We were the only ones there so it was nice and I was able to sit in the shade and cool off.
I have found that when I exercise right before it is time for a meal, I make better food choices. I was so exhausted when we got home so I just whipped this up real quick for dinner for me. (Grilled chicken, okra, broccoli and an orange.)
Pounds Lost: 26 pounds
Pounds Left: 46 pounds
