Monday, November 8, 2010
An additional blog
Just wanted to let you know that I started a new blog. I will still be using this blog for personal posts so please make sure you keep following it! I have created an additional blog at...
http://threadedthingsbytammy.blogspot.com/
Here, I will post various handmade projects. Several people have mentioned I should post the things that I make so this will be a start. So, please make sure you follow that one so you can see the new posts on your blogger dashboard!
Love,
Tammy
P.S. LOTS and LOTS of pictures coming soon, as soon as I have time!!
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Sneak Peek...
Sunday, October 17, 2010
It's Time For a Change
I have been praying about my place in the small group (Bible Study) that I joined. I just haven't really felt like I fit in and have questioned myself, and the Lord, if it is right for me. Without going in to details, I feel like I have been given several signs telling me that it is not the right fit for me. So, I am no longer attending that. It is kind of bitter sweet but I know I will find my place eventually.
I have been really down lately about my weight. I have to go to school tomorrow to do a presentation for a class that I have. I wanted to make sure I had pants that fit and sure enough, I didn't. I went to the store and got 2 different sizes to try on. Neither fit. I had to go even bigger. I saw the size that I never thought I would see on myself. So I started thinking about how this has happened. I have been wearing the same clothes for months. I realized the problem is that I never get dressed up. I have all online classes. Kyle and I never go out because Tayler is just too difficult in public settings. So, I wear lounge clothes all the time. Lounge clothes have elastic... there is a problem. Also, since I never get dressed up, I really don't look in the mirror too often... Another problem. I didn't realize what I look like.
I am so sleep deprived and stressed out from school and the kids that I guess I let myself go. I never have "me" time so I definitely don't have time to exercise nor the energy to cook. But I have now realized that I have to make time. Instead of staying up late to watch shows that we have recorded, I need to go to bed early so I can wake up before the kids and exercise. I have to make the changes in my lifestyle if I want the changes in my body to happen.
I purchased a couple of work out videos in hopes they would motivate me to start working out on my own with the exercise equipment sitting in my dining room that was purchased earlier this year. I purchased 2 Jillian Michaels videos.. a 20 minute and a 30 minute. I figured there is no reason I cannot do a 20 minute video. I need baby steps so I thought this would be the perfect motivation. I hope I'm right.
I have also been trying to compile menus so that when I am hungry, I know exactly what to eat because I have already calculated the food groups and calories.
I am doing this completely on my own, which is one reason why I think I am having such a hard time. Kyle, although he has gained a few pounds, can lose them quickly. I, on the other hand, have about 75 pounds to lose. So it is a bigger deal for me. It is definitely hard living with someone who loves junk food. It has been much harder having Kyle home the past few months. Don't get me wrong, I love the time with him, but I don't love the results of the meals we eat together. So, please keep me in your thoughts and prayers that I can find the strength within myself to take control of my life and lose the weight that I need to lose to be a healthy person.
I know it only takes 2 weeks to get over cravings, it's just that those first 2 weeks are sooo hard. I am starting tomorrow so wish me luck!
Are you currently trying to lose weight or have you in the past? What is working for you? What didn't work for you? I would love any and all feedback.
Tammy
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Neighborhood Fall Festival
..continued
My First Time...
... To Celebrate Halloween!!!
As many of you may, or may not, know, growing up, I was not allowed to celebrate Halloween. It was against my mom's religious beliefs like most other people in the church that I grew up in. My mom says we did celebrate it for a few years but I was too young to remember. I do have memories of Halloween...
Sitting in the dark with no lights on and having to be quiet.
My nana sending over a brown paper bag full of candy every years for us. (She always threw in a few pieces of fruit, too... I think to keep my mom happy. :) )
My dad hanging ghosts made out of sheets from the tree in the front yard just to made my mom mad.
Well, not that I am married and we have children of our own, Kyle and I have started new traditions.
Last year we went to the pumpkin patch and each got a pumpkin. We came home and carved them too! Colton helped pull all the "guts" out and Kyle baked pumpkin seeds that Colton LOVED. That was the first time I had ever carved a pumpkin. When we mentioned going this year Colton said "Yeah and we can eat the "punkin" seeds too!" This is something we plan to do every Fall. :)
We have always dressed Colton up for Halloween (as well as Tayler last year) but Colton was never old enough to understand what was going on so we didn't really "celebrate" Halloween. This year, I will for the first time that I can remember, be celebrating Halloween. We will be dressing the kids up and taking them Trick-or-Treating. I must say, I am pretty excited! I feel all giddy like a 10 year old!
I know different people have different beliefs and I respect those beliefs. But now that I am old enough to decide for myself, I have decided that our family will celebrate Halloween. I am not choosing to dress up as the devil or worship the devil. I am choosing to let my children celebrate in a holiday where they can dress up and be whatever they want for one day of the year and get lots of candy!!
So in the spirit of celebrating Halloween, we have made our home very Trick-or-Treater friendly! Below are pictures of our home. (I have to add, while I am laughing out loud right now, that the entire time I was doing the spider webs, I was chuckling in my mind having all sorts of rebellious thoughts and feelings.
Sunday, October 10, 2010
What a horrible week
Last Saturday night at about 10pm, Colton woke up and came to the living room very upset, covered in throw up. From then until 4am, I managed to do 5 loads of laundry - all his bedding. During those 6 hours, Colton got sick in his bed 5 times, so I was constantly rotating the 2 sets of bedding. He could not keep any food or juice down. The next day he seemed to be feeling better so we decided to run an errand, but I brought a bag with us just in case. Good thing because he got sick again. So, Saturday night until Sunday at about 5pm, he was sick. I kept him home on Monday from pre-school just to make sure it had passed and he wasn't contagious anymore. I guess I am more considerate than other parents because I heard other parents talking about how their kids were throwing up the day before. Don't people realize they should be well at least 24 hours to not be contagious? GRR. Colton is learning so much but sometimes I wonder if all the germs he is bringing home is worth it.
So, Monday was all good. Kyle is back on worker's comp because he is still having problems with his knee. So, I left him and Tayler asleep on Tuesday while I took Colton to school. When I got back, I could hear Tayler starting to make noises as she was awake. When I opened her door, I knew by the smell it would not be a good day. As I approached her bed, her and her bed were covered in bodily fluids. Tayler was sick until Wednesday morning. She was able to keep down food, unlike Colton, but no milk. I took a trip to the store to get some pedialyte on Tuesday and she and Kyle came with. (Kyle cannot handle throw-up. I swear, if men were the ones having babies there would be no babies! ha) So, Tayler got sick on the way to the store. :( Since it was Kyle's bright idea to take a family trip to the store, he got to clean the carseat. :) Luckily, she was able to hold down the pedialyte and recovered quickly.
The rest of Wednesday and Thursday were all good. Woohoo! The virus has passed! Well, not quite yet...
Friday night, about 10pm, I became very nauseous. I was sick all night until about 4am. It was awful. Yesterday, Saturday, I slept 4am-noon (8 hours), then 1-5 (4 hours) then 6-10 (4 hours) and then 12-9 this morning (9 hours.) I still have a very bad headache but luckily the virus has passed and I can now keep food down. The kids were also angels for Kyle and I did not hear them all day yesterday while I rested.
So, Kyle always being the one who catches things last, woke up this morning nauseous. He now has the bug and is resting between throwing up. Unfortunately, the kids are not being angels for me. I am recovering from being sick and still have a headache unlike any headache I have ever had before, so I am trying very hard to keep my patience. For some reason, the kids do not whien or cry with Kyle but with me that's all there is. So the crying and whining added with my headache added with how far behind in school work I am has made a pretty awful day so far. So, please keep me in your prayers today.
Hopefully after Kyle passes the virus it will all be over. We thought we were doing well disinfecting everything but I guess we will have to spray the entire house down with lysol since it is probably airborne.
So, we have had a stomach bug in our house for over a week now. Hopefully now that Kyle has it, it will all be gone.
Hoping for a better week this week!
Tammy